This has been a long time coming.
This journey started three years ago when Aaron Gillespie released his first solo worship album, Anthem Song. So many of the words spoke to my heart and I could not stop listening. A few months after the album was released, I spent a week in Antigua, Guatemala on my first mission trip and most of my quiet times were spent meditating on his lyrics.
It was on this trip that I composed and shared my story for the first time (the venue was an orphanage that sheltered mostly teenagers). Vulnerability was at an all-time high and the writing process forced me to look back on where I came from – the good, the bad, and the ugly – and how God was using that for His good. During the revision process, the lyrics of “I Will Worship You” from Aaron’s album stood out to me more and more.I wrote those lyrics in my journal, accompanied with a small doodle – a plain, solid black anchor – almost identical to the one that is now a permanent fixture on my left wrist.
The song says this to God: when I’m losing, broken, scared, tired, lost, dancing, hopeful, and healed… I will worship You. When life is hard. When it’s unfair. When I am happy, sad, joyful, or hurt.
As the chorus proclaims, God is the anchor of my soul. It is only His love that can make me whole. Because of that, I worship Him.